yamanai ame da neeee

Monday, April 15, 2013

have been reading gaijinwife's blog shuduan introduced to me.
made me think..
ok, stop having dreams of marrying a japanese man cause unless he's abnormal, he's gonna be a pain in the ass to be with. sorry, i have a very big ego. i'm female and i'm as good as you. makeru wake nai darou!

10:55 PM

Monday, April 08, 2013

i think its bloody brilliant that one day i can come back and see what i was like in the past! i should start blogging again.

i have too many blog posts about how i should start blogging again.

that probably means i should just start, huh?

i envision myself as someone else. someone i'm not at this moment. but i think i'm lucky, in a sense that the hopes i have for myself are achievable.

well firstly i need a job. oh moe please take me!

10:34 PM

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Just finished reading We Bought a Zoo. Truly inspiring. Curled up in bed the better part of the day and finished it up in just 7 hours.. It was a really great escape from what I was facing.. haha really didn't want to think about it. The best way to cope for me is to deny the problem for awhile until I feel like i'm strong enough to handle it.. It really helped.

Stats is going badly.. But I think I can overcome it. Or rather, I have no choice but to. 1 more month! Come on, liting. You can do it.

7:28 PM

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

crunch time.

don't let your parents down.
most importantly, don't let yourself down.

8:19 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2012

i feel like a turkey that's fattening up for christmas. terrible feeling!!
just did a pilates thing (following some youtube vid) and now i think i'm gna puke up all my timtams.
OOPS DDDD:

9:48 PM

insomnia
Monday, July 02, 2012

The feeling of having a whole universe behind your eyelids only when you close it in an attempt to sleep.

11:15 PM

Saturday, June 23, 2012

i want to dye my hair orange.

i want to be in a forbidden relationship, with a forbidden someone.

i want to go for jogs in the middle of the night, all alone, when it is 3 degrees out.

i want to secretly bring a puppy home with me one day.

i want to sky dive without asking for permission from my parents.

i want to tell people what i really think about them.

i want to relentlessly rant about someone i don't like.

i want to go into a restaurant and tell them 'GET ME ONE OF EVERYTHING, PLEASE' with a smug look on my face, simply because i can.

i want to meet a hollywood star that i drool over and pretend i don't know him.

i want to one day wake up to find that i've magically been flown to paris while i'm asleep.

i want to live my life unafraid.

i don't know if i really want all those things i just said i did. but i know i want to stop being scared. what is it like to feel fearless?

6:48 PM